and spontaneity. So, I spontaneously went through some pictures I already have printed and started to scrapbook for Elijah’s book, for the first time in a year and a half. It’s very satisfying, but I NEED MORE THINGS TO CREATE!!!!!!! And I have to clean everything up and put it away. I’m still mentally rearranging and rearranging and rearranging our place to figure out a way I could have a creative space, but nothing has worked out yet…in my brain. I’ve recently been drooling over some knitting websites, I hope to some day dive into that. Honestly, whenever I see ANYTHING on ANY website that someone has made….I think I could do that. The death of not creating is very slow, and very painful, and draining, and discouraging and the lack of personal space to create is SOMETHING I have GOT to figure out. Because making two scrapbook pages isn’t gonna hold me over for another year and a half.